What I Think: In To the Mind of Stuttering

Ive just read up on a story, and it was interesting, how this person was able to know why she stuttered and how to pretty much control and overcome it. So does this mean that stuttering can be cured, thats it might be psychological?
I say this because in the story she talks about how her therapist and her revisited her childhood, and "reframed" it. She also talked about how "Voluntary Stuttering" really helped her regain control of her stuttering.
 Anyway, doing all this, made her change her views on thoughs bad childhood memories and helped her achieve confidence in her fluency skills.
 She says in the end of her story that "Speaking is very easy- to just open your mouth and let it flow."
 I know shes saying this from a "recovered state of mind", but I kind of think how severe stutterers etc would think about it, in general about this whole story. I guess I wont know since Im not severe. But I posted this link on the Stuttering Arena on FB, in hopes to shed some light.

 She also talks about how her fluency differs depending on her emotional state. Again, does that mean stuttering really is all psychological? I cant say it is for sure since Im not a professional. But I can only recall childhood memories that made me feel self hate/alienated about myself BECAUSE of my stuttering- it was linked to all the bullying, the teasing growing up. Other than that, all I can think of is my parents divorce- Then again, I remember my SLP I saw as a child telling me or my dad that I stutter because of the divorce at a young age..??

 I personally dont know if stuttering is neurological or psychological. But reading this womans story, it sounds more psychological. As if you just have to search for that missing piece in the puzzle and your on your way to recovery. Than again, it can be 50/50.

 But maybe other people have a different story. Like me, how I dont know what triggered my onset.
 If it really is the divorce, I totally feel no guilt or any negative feelings against or about it, although I did as a child. My emotional state growing up WAS a bit hectic I guess. But I cant say thats why I stutter.

 Stuttering is unpredictable- its 50/50. As if it has a mind of its own.
Maybe for some people, suppressing the past is the key, and for others its just a enemy you have to befriend.

Support is Key

Ok, as much as I want to see stuttering in a positive way, sometimes the rain falls, and things really go downhill.
 Its so annoying how stuttering is unpredictable.
 At the moments when I dont think Ill stutter, I do and vis versa, or how I stutter badly with facial contortions. Or other times not stuttering at all.
 It can be a heavy burden some days, but I still try to see the good things about my stutter....
 Its unique for one thing, and Im not alone in it.

 I guess everything has a black and white perspective.
 Everyone has good and bad days, that goes for stuttering as well.

 The rants on stuttering will never leave my head.
But neither will my motivation to become a SLP.
Its a long and shaky road I know it..
But i have support from other stutterers, and so do every other stutterers.

Stuttering Is Unique

I found this video. And it made me feel maybe stuttering can be seen as a unique and special thing. It makes us who we are and how we can feel comfortable with it.
 It gave me a light of hope in some ways, and I just wanted to share it on here. :)

 Despite saying this, I know I still need to work on feeling comfortable with my stutter. :3

A Resolution

  I have been stuttering since I was 3 years old.
 Its been years, but Ive finally realized I should work on my stutter again. Ive recently got hired as a waitress and at the interview I honestly told my boss that I stuttered, she listened and seemed to be ok with it, she even let me work in the kitchen in the mean time, until I get my bearings.

  I was also inspired by watching this tv show called "MTV- I Stutter"; a documentary show focusing on 3 people who stutter, and how they get on in life etc.

  One of the big inspirations I got from watching it, was when one of the main people in the show, named Tim, who has a severe stutter problem, tries to get a job, and how he succeeds in doing so, by honestly telling the employer that he stuttered. The employer hired him for his good personality in the end, and Tim was able to pay his rent as well as see a SLP.
 The other two main characters in the show also improve, through their own challenges while facing their stutter.
 I recommend it to any stutterer out there. I think its a big motivation :)
  Here is part 1 of the show, if your interested, you can find the other 2 parts of the show on youtube.

 By watching this show, I felt I can try too, by facing my stutter once and for all..(not that im making much progress), by accepting my stutter problem.
Its ironic how I was hired as well, by opening up to my boss too about my stutter.

 I feel dealing head on with my stutter has made me feel better about myself, as a person, and stronger; like im dealing with something important for my own sake; like I found a piece of my self that was in hiding.

  Im hoping to someday become a SLP, who stutters.. lol but Im hoping my clients wont see my stutter as a bad thing... thats what Im worried about the most in having a career as a SLP.
  But Im trying to stay in high spirits about my goal :)
 Ive also heard that there are many SLP`s that stutter :3

 I think making this resolution about myself, can help me grow (hopefully) in many ways. I feel this problem, might be the secret in to recreating myself and helping myself to like myself as I am, instead of living life in my shadow.
I hope to stutter with confidence someday... <3 To be able to help other kids and adults who stutter.